[It takes a whole lot of effort not to flinch at that name--but he kind of does anyway lmao]

I--[and all that pent up angry, that yell, seems to disappate out of him, suddenly, and his shoulders slump, like even that much has Taken It Out Of Him]--I don't know. I don't think I'd really decided on my course of action until now. Or if I had, I didn't know that I had.

So that's probably why I haven't told her myself.